I really don’t. I want to write a witty, upbeat blog post but that is kinda hard to do whenever your life feels like it’s in the crapper most of the time. I don’t want to be a wet blanket, but “life” for me is just not where I want it to be, KWIM? I have some okay days, a few pretty good days, but mostly they are just same ole same ole days..which just isn’t that great. Work is pretty much sucking the life and fun out of me and try as I might to counteract that, I feel kinda like that little Dutch boy with his finger in the dam, except what started out as one leak has turned into a whole dam full of leaks and not enough fingers and no help in sight. I keep hoping this is just some kind of midlife crisis thing and that one morning I’m gonna wake up and the sun will be shining and the birds will be singing and I can go back to being the happier person I was. Truthfully…much bigger part of me believes that this is not the case and that really depresses and scares the hell out of me. I’m not even gonna start in on the guilt trip I got going on concerning the kids.
I have started taking a few baby steps to make things better. I am making a conscious decision to “be happier”…well, okay maybe not happier but, at least, less bitchier. I’m not always very successful, but I’m getting there. I have also made the decision to start incorporating things that I like to do back into my life..at least on a weekly basis. It’s pretty easy to break the camera out a couple days a week, but I have starting digging thru my craft boxes, looking for projects to do. This is about the time of the year when I like to start crocheting and knifty knitting again. Who all needs some homemade dishcloths and hats? LOL
I have also decided that regardless of whether or not I have happy happy joy joy stuff to share, I am going to dust off this blog and start posting again. So, you have been warned:)
Just to kick things up a notch, here is a picture I took of the way interesting mushrooms that have sprouted up next to the front porch. Actually it’s two pix..what they looked like yesterday and what they look like today. Welcome to my life;)